"It is impossible to receive from the high neshamah (soul) of the tzaddik except through many humiliations and much shedding of blood, for one must be greatly ashamed before meriting to receive from the light of his holy Torah, the true tzaddik, the spirit of our Mashiach of Hashem" - Rabbi Uzi Meshulam zt"l.

A letter from prison by the genius, kabbalist, and tzaddik Rabbi Uzi Meshulam zt"l hy"d "who was persecuted and murdered by corrupt establishment elements in the state that boasts the name 'Israel'" (as written about his situation).

The letter discusses the issue of the persecution of the true tzaddik and his students from the year 5755. The letter reveals his greatness in Torah and his awe that preceded his wisdom.

In the letter he wrote in prison which was written like a prophecy for this day, Rabbi Meshulam dealt with the greatness of the neshamah of Rebbe Nachman of Breslov, which is the neshamah of Mashiach ben David, who comes to rectify the sins of the generation through persecutions, humiliations, and insults, and what happens to all those who wish to draw close to this neshamah "the darkness and crookedness in the heart with doubts and confusions and enormous questions as the accuser mocks them, such as: this 'great' one said such and such, God forbid, about the tzaddik, and another 'great and accepted' one slandered such and such, God forbid, about the true tzaddik. Etc."

And here is the content of the letter, copied word for word from his holy handwriting:

With Hashem's help, 18th of Marcheshvan, 5755 "I will thank You for You have answered me and have become my salvation"

Our sign: "My strength and song is Hashem" may it be a year of Hashem's vengeance on the mixed multitude from that wicked seed of Amalek, may their name and memory be erased!

Words of Torah from the teachings of our Rebbe Nachman ben Feiga zt"l - the flowing stream, source of wisdom zy"a

Hashem had mercy on us and brought down to this world the neshamah of our Rebbe zt"l, which emanates from the head of Atik, for his neshamah is from that head that is not known and no one stands in it, in the secret of David, the king, Mashiach. And it was given into his hands to rectify the impurity of the blemish of the covenant in the secret of "before the sun, his name shall endure," which is the secret of "Y" "Nun," the brain of the fiftieth gate from which the main freedom to exit all constraints comes, as it is written "and fifty went up the children of Israel from the land of Egypt" (Exodus 13), that is precisely through the revelation of the fiftieth gate, the secret of the illumination of understanding, Israel went out from the nakedness of Egypt, which is the impurity of the blemish of the covenant as is known. And it is known that the secret of Mashiach is very zealous for Hashem and fights to eradicate the blemish of immorality from the world as it is said: "the spirit of our Mashiach of Hashem" against and to break and crush the letters of 'immorality.'

Therefore, all the blemished souls from the generation of the flood, which is the blemish of the covenant, and the generation of the dispersion, which is heresy, have returned and reincarnated in these generations, and even though thousands and tens of thousands of blemished souls have already been elevated and rectified by the unique tzaddikim of the generations until now, nevertheless, there remained such holy souls that fell into very great blemishes, which even those unique tzaddikim of the generations could not rectify, for reasons incomprehensible and beyond our human understanding. Until Hashem had mercy and brought down to this world the neshamah of our Rebbe, Rebbe Nachman, the secret of the neshamah of David, the king, Mashiach and he is hidden in Hashem in Mashiach in the secret of "if there is no flour, there is no Torah!"

And as we said above, his neshamah is from that head that is not known and no one stands in it, and it was given into his hands to rectify this sin and to gather and collect all the scattered and dispersed from the four corners of the earth and return them to their root,and he instills in them the point of light of the new M"H, the illumination of the forehead of the world of rectification, in such a wondrous and awesome renewal and revelation, until they are transformed into a completely different person as it is written (Isaiah 12): "And you will say on that day, I will thank You, Hashem, for You were angry with me, Your anger turned away and You comforted me, behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not fear, for Hashem is my strength and song, and He was my salvation.

And you will draw water with joy from the wells of salvation and you will say on that day, give thanks to Hashem, call upon His name, make known His deeds among the peoples, mention that His name is exalted, sing to Hashem for He has done gloriously, this is known in all the earth, shout and sing, inhabitant of Zion, for great is the Holy One of Israel in your midst," and in the translation there, if we scrutinize every word with Hashem's help we can understand the wonders of the secrets and mysteries of Torah, for after one merits to become acquainted with this true tzaddik, who is among the chosen tzaddikim, and to receive from him a new and awesome Torah learning, which flows from the inner unity, things that have not yet been revealed in the world until now.

It was worth all the descents and falls and consequences that one goes through when drawing close to the true tzaddik.

And this is hinted at in the translation: "And I will thank You, Hashem, for because I was humble before You, Your anger was upon me, and because I returned to the hidden ancient Torah, Your anger turned away from me,and You had mercy on me and in You I trust and will not be shaken by any person, for the great holy one said to dwell His Shechinah, blessed be He, within me and in all the earth, and bring redemption to all the holy nation and to all the worlds.

And it is brought in the holy books when the neshamah of a true tzaddik like the aforementioned tzaddik needs to descend into the world, the accuser and his forces accuse and claim that if it descends to this lowly world, the accuser and his forces will have nothing left to do. And the accuser comes with claims to the Creator of the world, for what purpose did You create us, etc., if You bring this neshamah that emanates from the three first ones from that head that is not known and no one stands in it, and they answer the accuser that this neshamah must certainly descend to the world!

Your end, accuser, has arrived according to the verse and the wording of the verse in Ezekiel 7: "The end has come, the end has come"... "Now the end is upon you, accuser," and you,accuser, you have one choice to seek proposals and strategies to contend with this holy neshamah, because it will not help, this neshamah will descend to this world.

The accuser went out and came and said there is already a strategy and plan and this neshamah can descend.

And our holy Rebbe says that the strategy and plan of the accuser is known in all the worlds, and it is the great spread of concealment and dispute over this holy neshamah.

"And they will speak lies and falsehoods about him, such that it is unbelievable," andthey will tell and spreadall kinds of obstacles and accusations against him,and he will be in great concealment and hidden from the world - this is the secret of the neshamah of our righteous Mashiach that will be revealed speedily in our days.

Master of the Universe, please, Your servant Uzi Azulai ben R' David and Tzionah, is waiting with longing for the revelation of the light of our righteous Mashiach, please help me, You are my Father, my God, and the rock of my salvation, to correct my ways well and not be, God forbid, among those who delay the coming of the redeemer and may we merit speedily in our days to the coming of our righteous Mashiach at our head and ascend to Jerusalem with eternal joy to raise His Shechinah from the dust. And may it be Your will that all our difficult sufferings be pleasing before You to raise the Shechinah from the dust, "You have done good with Your servant, Hashem, according to Your word," as Your word do and not as my request, amen, may it be Your will.

But I will offer a prayer to You, a prayer to You, my Father, You are my God and the rock of my salvation, teach me what to ask, teach me what to request for the sanctification of Your name in the world.

"The generation is beautiful, the splendor of the world, my soul is lovesick for You, please God, heal her by showing her the pleasantness of Your splendor, then she will be strengthened and healed and will be Your eternal maidservant" - "with eternal joy!" Yes, Father, You know!

And so says our Rebbe, Rebbe Nachman zt"l zy"a, that the secret of the neshamah of our righteous Mashiach will be in great concealment and hidden from the world and as the sages said (Sanhedrin 98) the son of David will not come except in a moment of distraction because he will already be in the world, but he will be concealed

And anything that touches this neshamah will come with great heaviness and immense obstacles from within and without,and it will be clothed in many garments, etc. and it will not be possible to draw close to people and the house of Israel to this neshamah except throughself-sacrifice, precisely,

as it is written: in Likutei Moharan Part 1, Siman 152, that all the power of the s"m the accuser and his forces that work to prevent and hinder those souls from drawing close to this true tzaddik, the neshamah of Mashiach,operate because of the souls of those people themselves, by their blemishing of the covenant, the emission of seed in vain, may Hashem save us.

Therefore, through their sin, they gave strength to the s"m and his forces, and therefore all the obstacles and hindrances are themselves caused by this because they are still clothed in filthy garments from which the obstacles come, and the darkness and crookedness in the heart with doubts and confusions and enormous questions as the accuser mocks them, such as:

this 'great' one said such and such, God forbid, about the tzaddik, and another 'great and accepted' one slandered such and such, God forbid, about the true tzaddik. Etc.

Until many rise against anyone who wants to enter into kedushah (holiness)and draw truly close to the true tzaddik.

And it is impossible to break all the obstacles that spread over anyone who wants to enterand receive and draw from this hidden light (the true tzaddik) except through self-sacrifice specifically,as our Rebbe, Rebbe Nachmanzt"l zy"a expands upon through his student in the laws of "koshering vessels" halacha 4. For it is impossible to receive from this high neshamah in the service of Hashem, which this neshamah is the "wonderful counselor" whose advice is wondrous and awesome and very deep, from the aspect of the thousand lights,except through many humiliations and much shedding of blood, for one must be greatly ashamed before meriting to receive from the light of his holy Torah, the true tzaddik, the spirit of our Mashiach.

For it is impossible to draw and sanctify oneself from the true tzaddik except through self-sacrificetruly, as we see with our senses the great obstacles and sufferings and coverings that one must pass through to draw close to the truth,one must endure sufferings until the crushing of the soul..

And on this it is said in Psalms 44 "for Your sake we are killed all day long, we are considered as sheep for the slaughter" and it is also said in the Zohar Parshat Terumah "the Torah is only established in one who kills himself over it." That is, "who breaks all the obstacles and endures all the sufferings,and makes true self-sacrifice to draw close (not to know!) to the true tzaddik and his Torah and his people,and then he is safe from stumbling (and so he expands in Likutei Halachot, Meat and Milk, halacha 5), and thus he calls those who draw close to the true tzaddik, each according to his filthy garments that need rectification. On one hand, his neshamah and his good inclination merit him to become acquainted with this true tzaddik, the hidden light, who can rectify him with such a wondrous and awesome rectification until he merits the revelation of the new M"H (explanation of "parrot" like a parrot that repeats what it hears and understands nothing: the intention "parrot" is for Uzi A. Meshulam) - the new M"H, our holy rabbis said in the teachings of the Arizal, and among them and first of all the Arizal zy"a in Etz Chaim in the gate of the Nisira, that the malchut is formed from the lower part of the hod of Arich Anpin.

And this is "the fourth spirit" mentioned in the Idra Rabba page 132, and from there the king Mashiach. And from him they will attain and understand the wisdom, for then the light of the moon will be elevated. Until here are the words of the Idra Rabba, and it is also known that the Mashiach will merit speedily in our days "to the illumination of the forehead" called "will" continuously!

And it is known that "the illumination of the forehead" is the secret of the new M"H, called "Had" and hinted at (in Genesis 36:39) "and Hadar reigned after him" and this is what King David hinted at in Psalms: "glory and majesty are before him." "Glory" - is "the fourth spirit," which is the secret of the hod of Arich Anpin, and "majesty" - is the secret of "the new M"H," "are before him" - before King Mashiach.

And if so - as we said above in the name of our holy Rebbe, that on one hand his neshamah and his good inclination of the one drawing close to the true tzaddik merit him to become acquainted with this "hidden light" the true tzaddik, who can rectify him with a wondrous and awesome rectification for the service of Hashem according to his root,a wondrous and awesome rectification such that he merits the revelation of the new M"H which is the revelation of the hidden light from the six days of creation, etc. as above. But on the other hand, from the side of his "filthy garments" and his evil inclination and his blemishes in the blemish of the covenant, God forbid, on the other hand, the side of the "other side" hears him drawing close all kinds of oppositions to the true tzaddik - and all kinds of obstacles, questions, and doubts spread over him and great disputes reach his ears about this true tzaddik,and if so,if he has intelligence in his mind, he must know and believe and understand, says our Rebbe, that all these are a rebuke for blemishing his brain drops.

And for this sin it is said (in Proverbs) "all who come to her will not return and will not attain the paths of life," for if he had not blemished and sinned in the blemish of the covenant, and his mind was not blemished, he would not have heard, disputes and arguments about "the true tzaddik," and all the disputes and arguments, the imaginations and temptations did not come to him except from the "other side" in order to distance him, God forbid, from the "hidden light" -"the true tzaddik."

And therefore, when he merits to truly understand, and not to deceive himself, God forbid, then even if he hears oppositions, disputes,and temptations to distance from this "hidden light" - the true tzaddik, and even if in his mind thoughts arise several times, perhaps it is better, God forbid, to flee from this true tzaddik,then immediately he will settle his mind and look and have mercy on himself very well,,

where he is in the world, for they want to distance him from the source of his life, from the supreme pleasantness from the flowing stream, source of ancient wisdom,the secret of the neshamah of our righteous Mashiach, NNM"CH=flour, "if there is no flour, there is no Torah," which is the river that purifies from all the stains in the world, and with thishe will break the crookedness in his heart and will not look at any obstacle and hindrance and even if the obstacles are from himself,and thus over time, he will merit to enter into the gates of kedushah and see many wonders and all good forever.

Waiting for his students with the blessing of Hashem, strength to His people He will givethat they will arrive very soon, Uzi A. ben R' David Meshulam.

We thank the yeshiva student Yaakov Rivlin for enlightening us to publish the letter.