Prayer Before Placing the Ashes at Midnight by the Esteemed Tzaddik Rabbi

In the city of Shuvu Banim, may it be built and established speedily in our days.

Master of the World, grant me the merit to weep and recite Tikkun Chatzot with abundant tears over the destruction of the Holy Temple and the burning of the House of our G-d. May these ashes, which I am about to place upon my forehead, serve to sweeten the 280 (Par) judgments that I am immersed in—those terrible desires that I have sunk into day and night. Instead of studying Torah day and night, which is the secret of the Garden of Eden:

Day (Yomam) 96 | Garden (Gan) 53

Night (Valayla) 81 | Eden 124

177 | 177

For then, Hashem enters at midnight into the Garden of Eden, which is created through the study of Torah for its own sake and through the ashes that one places beforehand on the forehead. Through this, all the 280 (Par) judgments—which are all the desires I have stumbled into throughout the past day—are sweetened. Only through this does one merit to join together with Hashem in the Garden of Eden on that night. Then, one merits to have a thread of kindness drawn out all day, which is Torah for its own sake, just as Rebbe Nachman writes in Torah 3: that anyone who rises at midnight merits to study Gemara for its own sake and Torah for its own sake, and merits to hear the sound of the melody from the two Cherubim—the secret of the two Mashiachs: Mashiach ben Yosef and Mashiach ben David. Then he merits to be included in the two Mashiachs, Mashiach ben Yosef and Mashiach ben David (plus 2), which is the Gematria of Torah for its own sake.

Torah 617

For its own sake 375

992

Mashiach 358 | Mashiach 358 | 566

Ben 52 | Ben 52 | 424

Yosef 156 | David 14 | 990

566 | 424 | + 2

992

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, in the merit of the ashes that I am now going to place on my forehead, remove from me the "forehead of a harlot woman, you refused to be ashamed," and I will no longer look at any woman in the world at all, nor at any young girl at all. Through the Tikkun Chatzot that I am now going to recite, may all the 280 (Par) judgments be sweetened from me forever and ever, and may I merit, in the merit of the ashes and in the merit of the Tikkun Chatzot, to study Torah for its own sake, and through this, I will merit to be included in the two Mashiachs, Mashiach ben Yosef and Mashiach ben David.