Prayer Before the Prayers

Master of the Universe, please accept all the awesome prayers that we are saying at the holy and awesome tziyunim (gravesites) of the holy Prophets, Tannaim, and Amoraim, upon whom alone we have staked our support, and upon whom alone we have relied, for only they have the power to elevate our prayers before the Throne of Glory, and only they can advocate for us before Your Throne of Glory.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, hear the sound of our cry, our supplication, our groan, and our screams, and save us in the merit of these tzaddikim in the blink of an eye, and may we merit to see in the blink of an eye the coming of Yinon (Mashiach), and the building of our Holy Temple in the blink of an eye, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Abaye and Rava

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit to reach the spiritual level of Abaye and Rava, as it is written in the Gemara that Abaye would receive greetings of "Shalom" every Friday evening from Heaven, and they would say, "Peace be upon you, Abaye," and Rava, at the very least, on the eve of Yom Kippur, they would say, "Peace be upon you, Rava" (Taanit 21a). And may I merit to see Hashem face to face like Abaye and Rava, as it is said in the Gemara (Brachot 48a): Abaye and Rava were sitting before Rabbah. Rabbah said to them, "To whom do we bless?" They said to him, "To the Merciful One." "And where does the Merciful One sit?" Rava pointed to the roof; Abaye went outside and pointed toward the heavens. Rabbah said to them, "Both of you will become Rabbis." This is what people say: "Every pumpkin is known from its stalk" (a child's potential is visible early on).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit to reach the level of Abaye and Rava, and may I merit that my soul be included in their souls, and may I merit some spark of their souls. And may I also merit, like Rava, that the halacha (Jewish law) will be ruled according to me in every place. And may the acronym of Abaye be fulfilled in me: "Asher B'cha Yerucham Yatom" (In Whom the orphan finds mercy), and have mercy on me like an orphan, "For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but Hashem will gather me in." And in this merit, prolong the days of my father and mother until one hundred and twenty years in great happiness, wealth, and nachat (joy), and may my father and mother merit to be great in Torah and to know the entire Torah completely. And together may we merit to see the coming of the King Mashiach, and the building of the Holy Temple, speedily in our days in the blink of an eye, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to be like Abaye and Rava who merited to hear a Heavenly Voice from the heights, and merited that the holy Gemara is named after them, "The Discussions of Abaye and Rava," because the entire holy Gemara is entirely composed of Holy Names. And Lavan's root is in the Sefirot of the 32 Paths of Wisdom and the 50 Gates of Understanding, and Pharaoh's root is in the Sefirah of Binah (Understanding), from which all lights are uncovered and revealed.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit to swallow the letters of the Gemara and may they be in my mouth like sweet honey, because honey (דְּבַשׁ) is 306, butter (חֶמְאָה) is 54, which in Gematria equals Shas (שַׁ"ס) = 360. And may I know faithfully that every word in the Gemara is a Holy Name, because Abaye (23) and Rava (209) = 232, which are the four holy and awesome Names: Yud-Kay-Vav-Kay (Name of Av 72), Yud-Kay-Vav-Kay (Name of Sag 63), Yud-Kay-Vav-Kay (Name of Mah 45), Yud-Kay-Vav-Kay (Name of Ban 52) = 232 + 1 (for the word itself) = Regel (רֶגֶל - foot) 233. And through this, may I merit to rectify all my "feet" (spiritual foundations), and all my blemishes of the Brit (holy covenant), until I merit the verse, "And His feet shall stand on that day upon the Mount of Olives," which hints at the rectification of the Brit, the rectification of the feet, and through this, I will never again blemish my Brit forever.

Master of the Universe, as I prostrate myself upon the holy tziyunim of Abaye and Rava, the masters of the holy Gemara, may I merit in their merit to subdue Haman Amalek + 4 = Gemara (גְּמָרָא) 244. And through the study of the Shas = 360, whose masters are primarily Abaye and Rava, may I merit that "All the horns of the wicked I will cut off; the horns of the righteous shall be exalted" (horns/קרני = 360). And through this, may I merit to be included in Adam Kadmon = 245 through the study of the holy Ha-Gemara (הַ-גְּמָרָא) = 244 + 1. Because the entire holy Gemara is a combination of Holy Names composed of the Name Av, Sag, Mah, Ban = 232, which is the Gematria of the existences of Abaye (23) and Rava (209) = 232.

And through the soul of Abaye, may I merit to emerge from all the terrible orphanhood in which I find myself, "For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but Hashem will gather me in," because Abaye is the acronym for Asher B'cha Yerucham Yatom (In Whom the orphan finds mercy). And through the soul of Abaye, may the soul of Rabbi Yeiva Sava also impregnate me, and may I merit to be like Abaye who merited to receive greetings of "Shalom" every Friday evening from the Heavenly Academy, and at the very least like Rava who heard that Heavenly Voice of "Shalom" on the eve of Yom Kippur.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, in the merit of Abaye and Rava, and in the merit of studying the Shas and the holy Gemara, the secret of the Shechinah (Divine Presence) [Shin 360, Chaf 100, Yud 20, Nun 106, Hey 15 = 601 + the three holy Patriarchs, the root of the Gemara and the Shas = 604, the secret of Shas 360, Gemara 244 = 604], grant me the merit that through the study of the Shas and the Gemara, whose masters are primarily Abaye and Rava, I will merit that the Shechinah and the three Patriarchs will rest upon me, and the Shechinah will speak from my throat. And through the study of the holy Gemara (244 + 1 = 245), may I merit the secret of "The blossoms [=245] have appeared in the land, the time of singing has arrived, and the voice of the turtledove (HaTor) is heard in our land"—HaTor shares the letters of the holy Torah. And may I merit throughout my holy study to always have in mind the four Holy Names (Av, Sag, Mah, Ban), the Gematria of Abaye and Rava, and through this may I merit to study Torah for its own sake until the holy Shechinah rests upon me and upon all of Israel, Amen.

Dan ben Yaakov

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit that the verse be fulfilled in our days: "Dan shall be a serpent on the road, a viper on the path, that bites the horse's heels, so that its rider falls backward." Grant me the merit that in our days this verse will be fulfilled, according to the words of the holy Zohar (Balak 194b): "Dan shall be a serpent on the road" - this is Shimshon = the bone of Leviathan = 696. "A viper on the path" - this is Tzlaya. And may all the miracles return to us that Tzlaya performed, who ruled over sorcerers, and flew after Bilam, splitting five atmospheres on that path, and ascended and was hidden from the eye. And then Pinchas threw a voice to him and said, "Turn into your form," because Bilam was after the shadow of the serpent that crouches over the snakes. Immediately he knew and revealed that path, and went to him and brought him down to the ground. And just as Tzlaya overcame Bilam and defeated him, so too help us that Tzlaya, who comes from the tribe of Dan, will be revealed today as well, and will defeat the kelipah (evil force) of Aram Naharayim that threatens the people of Israel every single day. And fulfill in us the promise You promised to Dan: "That bites the horse's heels" - this is Ira, who was one of David's mighty warriors and participated with him in all his wars and victories; may we merit that he too will be revealed today and bring the Redemption of Israel. "So that its rider falls backward" - this is Serayah, who was from the sons of Dan, and who will come with the King Mashiach ben Efraim, and he is destined to take vengeance upon the nations, and fight the wars of Hashem, and take vengeance from the rest of the nations, as it is written, "God of vengeance, Hashem, God of vengeance, appear!" And he will avenge the "vengeance of the spilled blood of Your servants," and "he will not lie down until he eats the prey and drinks the blood of the slain." And as it is written (Isaiah 63:3-4), "I have trodden the winepress alone, and from the peoples, no man was with Me; and I trod them in My anger, and trampled them in My wrath; and their lifeblood sprinkled upon My garments, and I have stained all My clothing. For a day of vengeance is in My heart, and the year of My redeemed has come."

(Based on Torah 83, Part 2) And reveal the light of the eyes which comes through guarding the eyes, and they are what awaken the Geulah (Redemption) that is dependent on the heart. And then we will merit to be inflamed with flames of love, and to love You with heart and soul, and the inner love of Hashem will be revealed, which pushes away all evil loves and all evil fears, all external loves and all external fears, until we reach such a love that "Many waters cannot quench the love, nor can rivers wash it away." And then, when we reach this love, the Shechinah Herself will cover with Her wings the spilled blood of Israel, and then "Hashem will go forth and fight against those nations, as when He fights on a day of battle" (Zechariah 14:3). And in the merit of Serayah who will come from the tribe of Dan and fight the wars of Hashem, may we merit the complete Geulah this very day in the blink of an eye, Amen.

Elkanah

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One, grant me the merit to reach the level of Elkanah, about whom it is said: "And a man of God came to Eli and said to him, 'Thus says Hashem: Did I indeed reveal Myself to the house of your father when they were in Egypt subject to the house of Pharaoh? And I chose him out of all the tribes of Israel to be My priest, to go up to My altar, to burn incense, to wear an ephod before Me; and I gave to the house of your father all the fire-offerings of the children of Israel. Why do you kick at My sacrifice and at My meal-offering, which I have commanded in My habitation; and you honor your sons above Me, to fatten yourselves with the first of every offering of Israel My people? Therefore, declares Hashem, the God of Israel: I said indeed that your house and the house of your father should walk before Me forever; but now, declares Hashem, far be it from Me; for those who honor Me I will honor, and those who despise Me shall be lightly esteemed'" (Shmuel I, 2:27-31).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me that all the days of my life these words of Elkanah will be a lamp to my feet, and I will always be careful with the honor of Hashem, and I will never cause a desecration of Hashem's Name. For "It is better for me to be called a fool all my days than to be made a wicked person for one hour before the Omnipresent" (Eduyot 5:6). And may I merit to accept all the humiliations in the world for the sanctification of Your Name, and I will not envy any person in the world, certainly not people more important than me, that I will not seek their harm, nor blemish their honor, nor falsely accuse them of anything. Rather, may I merit to accept all the humiliations in the world with love, as it is said: "Those who are insulted but do not insult, hear their reproach but do not reply, act out of love and are happy in suffering, of them the verse says, 'And His lovers are like the sun going forth in its might'" (Shabbat 88b). And may I merit what was said, that they dug in the ground of Rav Nachman, and Rav Achai bar Yoshiyah found him alive and well and his bones had not rotted, in the merit that he never in his life envied any person in the world (Shabbat 152b).

Rabbi Tarfon

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, as I stand here at the holy and awesome tziyun of Rabbi Tarfon, in trembling and quaking, terror and fear and shaking, dread and shuddering, and all my bones are hovering from fear, as I prostrate myself here upon the holy and awesome tziyun of one of those who still merited to stand and ascend the Duchan (priestly blessing platform) in the time of the Holy Temple, and later merited to be counted among the Ten Martyrs of the Kingdom, and sacrificed his life for the sanctification of Hashem's Name, and suffered all the agonies in the world for the sake of all of the congregation of Israel in the coming generations, for these generations of ours, and for all generations until Mashiach and after Mashiach. And therefore I have come here before You, great and awesome God, in the infinite merit of Rabbi Tarfon, to plead for myself and for all the members of my household and for all Your people the House of Israel, that You grace me to walk in Your ways and to engage in Your Torah day and night without pause, and to study Gemara, Shas, Rambam, Tur, Shulchan Aruch, Rif, Rosh, and all their commentaries, without any weariness and without any fatigue. And nothing will prevent me from studying Your holy Torah, and I will never get angry, and I will not be strict with any person in the world, and I will never inform on anyone, and I will not speak lashon hara (evil speech) about anyone. And I will guard my eyes with the utmost guarding not to see anything forbidden, Heaven forbid, and I will always walk in the streets of the city with closed eyes, and I will do true teshuvah (repentance) for everything I have stumbled in from my beginning until now, in this incarnation and in other incarnations, in the merit of Rabbi Tarfon, the holy and awesome tzaddik, who already took upon himself all the sufferings until the end of all generations.

Rabbi Yehuda bar Ilai

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Rabbi Yehuda bar Ilai, the foremost speaker in every place, shaken and terrified and all my bones trembling, and my knees knocking against each other, who merited that the Gemara said of him: "Rabbi Meir and Rabbi Yehuda, the halacha is like Rabbi Yehuda; Rabbi Shimon and Rabbi Yehuda, the halacha is like Rabbi Yehuda" (Eruvin 46b). Whose every word was like coals of fire, and who merited to be a spark of Yehuda the son of Yaakov, and therefore he said, "There is no removal of chametz except by burning." Grant me the merit to remove the chametz from my heart, and to burn the leaven in the dough completely, and to nullify from myself leaven and sourdough with complete nullification. And may I merit that right now a spark from his awesome soul will impregnate me, that by the power of this spark I will merit to serve You day and night without stopping for a moment or a second, in supreme and exceedingly immense devotion. And may I merit to study the words of the Mishnayot and the Braitot with exceedingly immense yearning, because every single utterance from the words of Rabbi Yehuda bar Ilai pierces the heavens and penetrates to the great abyss, from the height of the firmament and reaches even the souls sunken in the great Sheol (underworld), and brings them out from darkness to light, from subjugation to redemption. Grant me the merit in his merit from this moment to cast away all my despicable thoughts, and to purify my heart until it is a completely pure heart, as it is said, "Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." And may it be fulfilled in me in the merit of Rabbi Yehuda bar Ilai, "The secret of Hashem is for those who fear Him, and His covenant to make them know it." And may I merit from now on to be a guardian of the Brit in truth and in wholeness, and in this merit may all the secrets of the Torah be revealed to me from now on in Pshat, Remez, Drush, Sod (the four levels of Torah interpretation), and I will truly be an expert in all four parts of the Torah in truth. And may I know in the merit of Rabbi Yehuda bar Ilai the entire Shas, forwards and backwards, with broad knowledge and deep analysis, and likewise all the books of the Rambam, Tur, Shulchan Aruch, with all their commentators and sub-commentaries, until I merit in the merit of Rabbi Yehuda bar Ilai to complete all the parts of my soul—Nefesh, Ruach, Neshamah, Chayah, Yechidah—and I will not enter in shame before You.

Abba Shaul

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Abba Shaul, who merited to be the tallest in his generation (Niddah 24b), and merited to be a burier of the dead and to bury the evil eye. And he never had any jealousy or any evil eye in the world, and he merited to subdue the evil eye of Avshalom who wanted to kill his father David, and the evil eye of Og who wanted Avraham Avinu, peace be upon him, to be killed. And he never had any jealousy of any person, but only extended his patience endlessly and unfathomably, because his soul was hewn from Arich Anpin (the Divine Countenance of infinite patience), and therefore he was the tallest in his generation, and merited to be elevated and uplifted up to Arich Anpin (Midrash Pinchas), where there is no anger and no wrath against anyone, and he merited to sweeten all the wrath in the world, and all the anger in the world. So too, grant me the merit in the merit of Abba Shaul to never again be strict with any person in the world at all, and to never again be angry at anyone in the world at all. And in the merit of Abba Shaul, I will no longer have any jealousy of any person in the world at all, and I will rejoice in everyone who succeeds and defeats me and rises above me, as it is written, "To the Chief Musician (LaMenatzeach), a Psalm of David"—sing to the one who defeats (Menatzeach) him and is happy (Pesachim 119a). So too, make me rejoice with all kinds of joy, and I will never again fall into sadness, Heaven forbid, but I will merit in the merit of Abba Shaul to be like Abba Shaul, always happy without any drop of sadness, and to fulfill completely "And you shall be only happy," and only to be happy with my lot and not to want anything belonging to others. And in the merit of Abba Shaul, may I merit to completely nullify from myself the lust for money, and I will not stumble, Heaven forbid, in the severe prohibition of "You shall not covet" from now until eternity, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to be like Abba Shaul who was the tallest in his generation (Niddah 24b), and had no jealousy of any person in the world. And grant me the merit to be a burier of the dead like Abba Shaul, who used to bury the evil eye and jealousy, and merited to bury the evil eye of Avshalom, who could not tolerate the success of his father, let alone the successes of other people. And he merited to bury the evil eye of Og, King of Bashan, who devised schemes of how to kill Avraham Avinu, peace be upon him, let alone other people whom he envied. And therefore Abba Shaul merited to be the tallest in his generation, as Rabbi Pinchas of Koretz writes in the book "Midrash Pinchas" that he merited the level of Arich Anpin, and ascended up to Arich Anpin, and never got angry and never envied any person in the world, even if they succeeded more than him, let alone not envying people more important and more righteous and more learned. So too, grant me the merit from now until eternity to be like Abba Shaul, and to never again envy any person in the world, and not to desire money at all, and I will hate money with the utmost hatred, more than terrorists and Nazis, may their names be erased. And may I merit to fulfill what is written in the story of the Master of Prayer (by Rebbe Nachman), to feel the foul odor that emanates from money, until I will cast away every coin from me in haste and in the blink of an eye, and I will not want to have any money at all, from now until eternity.

Benayahu ben Yehoyada

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to be like Benayahu ben Yehoyada, who merited to be "a worm and not a man," and in this merit he merited to discover the Shamir worm = 555, Gematria of the eagle (הַנֶּשֶׁר) = 555. And he merited to soar like an eagle and to discover and defeat Ashmedai, the king of the demons, and through this he merited to discover the Duchifat (hoopoe bird) which merited to bend itself twice, as it is written, "Be very, very humble of spirit," and the Rambam says that more than humility which is the middle path, rather "Be very, very humble of spirit," which is the level of Moshe the Faithful Shepherd, "And the man Moshe was very humble, more than any man on the face of the earth." And through this, he merited the level of the Fiftieth Gate, Gematria of HaAdam (הָאָדָם - the man).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, Omnipotent One, mighty over all the mighty, just as You revealed the soul of Benayahu ben Yehoyada to Rabbi Elazar the son of Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai and to Rabbi Abba, which is the secret of the resurrection of the dead, so too reveal to me the soul of Benayahu ben Yehoyada, and may I merit true humility and lowliness, the secret of the resurrection of the dead. And just as You impregnated this wondrous soul into the Ben Ish Chai, in whose merit he wrote his books, so too impregnate this wondrous soul in me, and in its merit bestow upon me an abundance of Torah novelties endlessly and unfathomably, out of true humility and lowliness. And likewise, impregnate in all my sons and descendants this wondrous soul that struck the two lion-like men of Moab, and left none like him neither in the First Temple nor in the Second Temple, and in whose merit the two Holy Temples stood. So too, grant me the merit, Victor over all victors, and my entire generation, that in the merit of that wondrous soul we will defeat all our enemies, and the Third Holy Temple will be built right now.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, Hero over all heroes, impregnate in me the singular soul that merited the aspect of Yechidah, and it is the soul that struck the lion on the snowy day, and in its merit a lion of fire was drawn down upon the altar, which is the angel Uriel. Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit in the merit of this soul to fulfill "She fears not for her household from the snow, for all her household are clothed in scarlet," and from now on I will study Torah day and night without a moment's pause, and I will not "give sleep to my eyes, slumber to my eyelids, until I find a place for Hashem, dwellings for the Mighty One of Yaakov."

Master of the Universe, in trembling and quaking, fear and awe, that all my bones hover from fear, I stand before the holy and awesome tziyun of Benayahu ben Yehoyada, who left none like him neither in the First Temple nor in the Second Temple, as it is written, "He struck the two lion-like men of Moab," and he merited to study Torah in the snow and in the frost day and night. And in the merit that he was "a worm and not a man, a reproach of men and despised of the people," he merited to discover the Shamir worm through which King Shlomo built the Holy Temple. And because he merited to split the heart of stone, he merited the worm that split the giant stones of the building of the Holy Temple, and the stones of the Urim and Thummim that illuminated the eyes of Israel.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, illuminate my eyes with the letters of the holy Gemara which are the Urim and Thummim of our days, and I will study Torah and Gemara with immense desire, as it is written regarding Benayahu ben Yehoyada, "And he went down and struck the lion inside the pit on a snowy day." And may I merit to study even in the ice and in the snow, in the cold and in the frost, in the heat and in the scorching sun, and even in the desert and in blazing heat, until I merit the level of Yechidah that Benayahu ben Yehoyada merited. And through this, to defeat Ashmedai the king of the demons and the Prince of the Sea, the Prince of Ishmael, Rahav, who was appointed over the Shamir worm. And since Benayahu turned into "a worm and not a man," he merited to defeat all the terrible kelipot of Rahav and Ashmedai, and through this may I too merit to emerge from all the terrible kelipot that I am surrounded by.

Master of the Universe, as I stand before the holy and awesome tziyun of Benayahu ben Yehoyada, who "struck the two lion-like men of Moab" and left none like him neither in the First Temple nor in the Second Temple, and merited to be revealed in the secret of Yechidah to Rabbi Elazar and Rabbi Abba, the disciple of Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, in the secret of the resurrection of the dead. Who merited to be a soul that includes all the generations entirely, who merited to bring the Shamir worm for the building of the Holy Temple, because he merited to be "a worm and not a man" and his entire essence was a worm, until he merited to strike the lion inside the pit on the day of the snow (שֶׁלֶ"ג), which are three Alephs, Gematria of Aleph Aleph Aleph, which are the root of the Name Ekyeh, because he merited to be the root of the Name Ekyeh, the secret of the Aleph, and the secret of a veil (מַסְוֶה) = Aleph = 111, because his face shone and gleamed from one end of the world to the other.

Therefore, please, Merciful and Gracious One, just as You granted the merit to the Ben Ish Chai, who merited by prostrating himself upon this holy and awesome tziyun, that that soul of this holy and awesome tzaddik impregnated him, so too grant me the merit that I will be worthy for this wondrous soul to impregnate me. And through this, may I merit to always be "a worm and not a man," "For I am more brutish than a man, and I do not have the understanding of a man," "And I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast before You. Yet I am continually with You; You have grasped my right hand." And grant me the merit to subdue the Duchifat, the secret of "Hodo Kafut" (his glory is bound), the secret of terrible arrogance, through the rooster which is the angel Gavriel who blows the northern wind that is drawn from Binah at midnight. And through this, the hidden things of my heart and the mysteries of my heart will be revealed to study Torah day and night, and I will merit to be like Benayahu ben Yehoyada who finished the entire Torat Kohanim in one night of frost and snow. And through this, may I merit to be sanctified with the holiness of the High Priest, and never again blemish my Brit forever, and never again look at any woman in the world at all, until, in the merit that I will merit to guard the holy Brit and to guard the 224 lights, I will merit that You will reveal my true soulmate in inner light and surrounding light, because twice "woman" (אִשָּׁה) = Brit (בְּרִית). And through this, may I merit like Benayahu ben Yehoyada to subdue Ashmedai the king of the demons, and to annihilate all the demons in the world, and to eradicate the mother of demons who is Lilith the wife of S"M. And all this I will merit through guarding the Brit, because Brit in Gematria is S"M + Lilith + 1, and likewise through studying Torah day and night, because Torah in Gematria is S"M Lilith, that I may merit to subdue them completely from now until eternity.

Rachel Imeinu

Master of the Universe, full of mercy, as we travel to Beit Lechem Efrata, to the holy and awesome tziyun which is the tomb of Rachel Imeinu, about whom it is said, "Rachel weeps for her children; she refuses to be comforted." And Rachel Imeinu does not cease from praying for a single moment or second, for us and for all our troubles. And now we are all in terrible troubles and under terrible decrees, and every day, moment, and second, various and strange illnesses visit us, and dangerous illnesses for which there is almost no hope.

And now we have come to you, Rachel Imeinu, to pray before you for all our troubles, and for all the troubles of the House of Israel, [During the Three Weeks add: especially during the time of the Three Weeks] that our Holy Temple was burned, and our city was destroyed, and the nations, "slaves rule over us; there is none to deliver us from their hand." Therefore we have come to you, Rachel Imeinu, to pray before Hashem, may He be blessed, and that you will elevate our prayer before Hashem, may He be blessed, with mercy and favor, until we merit in your merit to be saved with an everlasting salvation, and the Holy Temple will be built in the blink of an eye, still in our own days, Amen.

Master of the Universe, as I travel now to the tomb of Rachel Imeinu and to prostrate myself upon her holy and awesome tziyun, please grant me the merit to cling to her holy traits, and to merit to weep day and night over the destruction of the Holy Temple and over the destruction of the people of Israel like her, as it is written, "Rachel weeps for her children." And grant me the merit to be included in her holy tears, and to feel the pain of every single Jew, and to weep day and night over the spilling of the blood of Your holy and pure children.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, please grant me the merit to be like Rachel Imeinu, who gave everything she had to her sister, and abandoned herself completely in every possible way for the sake of her precious sister, and gave her all her worlds in this world and the next. And through this, she merited that she will bring the Geulah (Redemption), and Mashiach will come first to her holy tziyun. Please grant me the merit to constantly travel to her day and night without pause, and to always prostrate myself upon her holy tziyun, and to pour out my heart like water upon her holy tziyun, until I merit completely to be included in her holy soul.

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit to be like Rachel Imeinu, who weeps day and night over the destruction of the Holy Temple, and the blood of Israel which is poured out like water.

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit to be holy and pure, myself and my wife, like Rachel Imeinu, who out of her great holiness and purity, handed over all her signs to Leah her sister, and gave up her portion in the World to Come, and all the life of this world for her sister, and merited to sacrifice her life for her sister with a whole heart. So too, grant me the merit to sacrifice my life for every single Jew with supreme self-sacrifice. And through this, may I merit to connect all the letters of Your Holy Name, Yud-Kay-Vav-Kay in their full spelling, and to fulfill "Only in You will we mention Your Name," and may I only merit that Your holy and awesome Name, Yud-Kay-Vav-Kay, will be constantly before my eyes, without pause day and night, without stopping even for a second at all.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, just as Yaakov Avinu merited to work for Rachel for seven years, so too grant me the merit to sanctify myself for seven years in the utmost holiness and purity for my precious wife who is unique in this generation. And may I merit to honor and cherish my wife day and night, and give me the mindset to cherish and honor her without a second's pause, and to always run toward her and serve her from all the good in the world, until, in the merit of the seven years that Yaakov worked for Rachel, it will be revealed to me: "The foundation of the tzaddik is hidden in seven, it is a sign of the covenant forever, from the wellspring of blessing is the Tzaddik Yesod Olam (the righteous one, foundation of the world), You are righteous, Hashem."

And may I merit to roar with awesome roars over the destruction of the Holy Temple, and the blood of Israel that is poured out in the streets of the city day and night without pause, as it is written, "Hashem will roar from on high, and from His holy habitation He will give forth His voice; He will roar mightily over His dwelling place." And I will raise a voice of wailing and weeping day and night over the breaking of the daughter of my people, like Rachel Imeinu who does not stop weeping for a second, over the killing of the children of our people, brothers, parents, grandparents, and schoolchildren, as it is written, "Thus says Hashem: A voice is heard in Ramah, lamentation, and bitter weeping, Rachel weeping for her children; she refuses to be comforted for her children, because they are not." And may I merit in ultimate perfection, myself and my wife, to be included in the soul of Rachel Imeinu, and through this to draw down the soul of Mashiach, who will merit to guard the holy Brit in the peak of perfection, just as Rachel Imeinu merited to draw down the soul of Yosef, who merited to withstand all the tests in the world, until he merited to sanctify the entire space of the world, until sacrifices of lesser holiness are eaten in his portion by anyone who sees.

Master of the Universe, in the merit of Rachel Imeinu who took the spindle of silence, and saw her wedding gifts in the hands of her sister and remained silent, so too grant me the merit of the trait of silence in perfection, and may I merit to fulfill completely "And Hashem is in His holy Temple; let all the earth keep silence before Him." And may I merit to give everything I have to anyone in the world, and I will be like Rachel who dwells here, who gave everything she had to her sister, both this world and the World to Come. And in this merit, may I merit to be a chariot for the Shechinah, and to enter the King's palace, and to merit to be among the members of Rachel's palace, which shines with precious light from one end of the world to the other. And may I merit the awesome ice which is above the Chayot (holy creatures), and may I merit to be entirely like the awesome ice, like Rachel who merited Yaakov who said, "By day the drought consumed me, and the frost by night." And may I merit, in the merit that I will be ice with my wife, to blaze with flashes of the flame of God, and twenty-four hours a day I will blaze with flashes of the flame of God toward You, may You be blessed, until I merit in this merit to be included in the Supernal Abba and Imma (Father and Mother). And may I merit like Rachel Imeinu, to draw down the soul of Mashiach ben Yosef to the world, who will redeem the people of Israel.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, in these holy and awesome moments, as I prostrate myself upon the holy and awesome tziyun of Rachel Imeinu, grant me the merit in Your abundant mercy and Your infinite kindnesses, that I may merit like her to pour out tears day and night, over the spilled blood of Israel, a holy nation, whose blood is poured out like water day and night, in the streets of the city and the thoroughfares, and no one opens their mouth or chirps.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, I know that all the terrible sufferings that the people of Israel are going through are solely because of my terrible sins, and the endless blemishes of the Brit in which I have stumbled from my beginning until this day. Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit like Rachel Imeinu to "Thus says Hashem: A voice is heard in Ramah, lamentation, and bitter weeping, Rachel weeping for her children; she refuses to be comforted for her children, because they are not."

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit to raise a voice of wailing and a voice of weeping day and night, especially at midnight until the morning, over the breaking of the daughter of my people, and over all the slain of the children of my people, old and young, whose blood is spilled day by day, and everything is solely because of my terrible blemishes of the Brit.

Prayer for Rachel's Tomb - For Women

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, in trembling and quaking, fear, shuddering, terror, and awe, we women stand here, before the holy and awesome tziyun of Rachel Imeinu, peace be upon her, who was blazing and burning with a flame of holy fire day and night toward You, Hashem, may You be blessed, and therefore her lamp never went out. And may it be Your will, Hashem our God and the God of our forefathers, that this flame of holy fire which blazed in Rachel Imeinu day and night, will be blazing in our hearts in the aspect of "A constant fire shall be kept burning on the altar; it shall not go out." And it will be engraved in our hearts, until we merit to be a flaming fire in the chain of generations of holy and pure Matriarchs, who went out dancing upon the pyre of the altar. And may we merit like Rachel Imeinu to draw down to the world the soul of Mashiach ben Yosef, and like her to a son like Binyamin, in whose portion the Holy Temple was built and will be built speedily in our days. And may we merit to pray for Mashiach ben Yosef, that he will not fall into the hands of the children of iniquity. And by the power and in the merit of Rachel Imeinu, who stands day and night in weeping and roaring for the salvation of her children, as it is written, "A voice is heard in Ramah, lamentation, and bitter weeping, Rachel weeping for her children; she refuses to be comforted for her children, because they are not" (Jeremiah 31:14), "He will roar mightily over His dwelling place" (ibid. 25:30). And therefore Rachel chose to be buried "on the road to Efrat, which is Beit Lechem" on the main road, so that we can always approach her in prayer, request, and crying out, and to pour out the silent whisper of our hearts upon her holy and awesome tziyun.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, in the merit of Rachel Imeinu, peace be upon her, have mercy on Your sons and Your daughters who are slaughtered day by day in the streets of the city. Death has come up into our windows, physically and spiritually, "We were almost like Sodom, we resembled Gomorrah." And all the walls of morality, holiness, and modesty have been breached, and we have been left like orphans without a father and mother, "Like a mast on the top of a mountain, and like an ensign on a hill," because all the tzaddikim and righteous women who existed from the days of old have left us, "They have journeyed to their rest, they have left us to sighs." And now the duty of the day has fallen upon us to be the connecting link between Rachel Imeinu and the holy Matriarchs and the coming generations, and to pass on the torch of fire of Torah and holy faith, purity, and modesty that burns in our hearts day and night. And in the merit that we will merit to pass on the torch of fire to all our generations coming after us, the fire will be kindled in our hearts doubly, thousands and tens of thousands of times more and more, until we merit to be like the holy Matriarchs, and the holy Prophetesses, Miriam the Prophetess, and Devorah the Prophetess, who at the time of her prophecy saw torches of fire above her tent. Until we merit that some spark from Rachel Imeinu, the holy and pure, will impregnate us, and we too will merit the spirit of prophecy, as it is written, "And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out My spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions. And also upon the servants and upon the handmaids in those days will I pour out My spirit. And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth, blood, and fire, and pillars of smoke" (Joel 3:1-3). And may the verses be fulfilled in our days: "Pour out Your wrath upon the nations that do not know You, and upon the kingdoms that do not call upon Your Name. For they have devoured Yaakov, and laid waste his habitation." "Why should the nations say, 'Where is their God?' Let there be known among the nations in our sight the avenging of the spilled blood of Your servants" (Psalms 79:6-7, 10). "Sing aloud, O nations, of His people; for He will avenge the blood of His servants, and will render vengeance to His adversaries, and will make expiation for the land of His people." And may the roars, weeping, and cries of Rachel awaken the light of the Geulah, and may we merit to see in the merit of Rachel Imeinu, peace be upon her, the complete Geulah and the building of the Holy Temple, speedily in our days in the blink of an eye, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Yeshayahu HaNavi

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Yeshayahu HaNavi, in trembling and shaking, in fear, in shuddering, in terror and in quaking, grant me the merit that my entire body will be exchanged for a holy body from Gan Eden. And may the prophecy be fulfilled in me: "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of Hashem has shone upon you. For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and thick darkness the nations; but Hashem will shine upon you, and His glory shall be seen upon you. And nations shall walk to your light, and kings to the brightness of your rising. Lift up your eyes all around, and see: they all gather together, they come to you; your sons shall come from afar, and your daughters shall be carried on the side. Then you shall see and be radiant, and your heart shall thrill and be enlarged; because the abundance of the sea shall be turned to you, the wealth of the nations shall come to you. A multitude of camels shall cover you, the young camels of Midian and Ephah; all those from Sheba shall come. They shall bring gold and frankincense, and shall proclaim the praises of Hashem. All the flocks of Kedar shall be gathered to you, the rams of Nebaioth shall minister to you; they shall come up with acceptance on My altar, and I will glorify My glorious house. Who are these that fly like a cloud, and like doves to their windows? For the coastlands shall wait for Me, and the ships of Tarshish first, to bring your sons from afar, their silver and their gold with them, for the Name of Hashem your God, and for the Holy One of Israel, because He has glorified you. And foreigners shall build up your walls, and their kings shall minister to you; for in My wrath I struck you, but in My favor I have had mercy on you. Your gates shall be open continually; day and night they shall not be shut, that men may bring to you the wealth of the nations, with their kings led in procession. For the nation and kingdom that will not serve you shall perish; those nations shall be utterly laid waste. The glory of Lebanon shall come to you, the cypress, the plane, and the pine, to beautify the place of My sanctuary, and I will make the place of My feet glorious. The sons of those who afflicted you shall come bending low to you, and all who despised you shall bow down at your feet; they shall call you the City of Hashem, the Zion of the Holy One of Israel. Whereas you have been forsaken and hated, with no one passing through, I will make you an everlasting pride, a joy from generation to generation. You shall suck the milk of nations, you shall nurse at the breast of kings; and you shall know that I, Hashem, am your Savior and your Redeemer, the Mighty One of Yaakov. Violence shall no more be heard in your land, devastation or destruction within your borders; you shall call your walls Salvation, and your gates Praise. The sun shall be no more your light by day, nor for brightness shall the moon give light to you by night; but Hashem will be your everlasting light, and your God will be your glory. Your sun shall no more go down, nor shall your moon withdraw itself; for Hashem will be your everlasting light, and your days of mourning shall be ended. Your people shall all be righteous; they shall possess the land forever, the branch of My planting, the work of My hands, that I might be glorified. The least one shall become a clan, and the smallest one a mighty nation; I am Hashem; in its time I will hasten it." And it is written (in Tanna D'vei Eliyahu, end of chapter 16): Rabbi said to me [they asked Eliyahu HaNavi], "In how many years did Yeshayahu prophesy all those good things and consolations that he prophesied for Israel?" I said to him [Eliyahu HaNavi answers him], "My son, if Israel had done teshuvah out of their love, the Holy One, blessed be He, would have built the final Temple for them immediately at that very hour. And how much more so that the Holy One, blessed be He, would embrace them, hug them, kiss them, and settle them in His bosom forever and for all eternity."

Mordechai and Esther

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, upon arriving here to prostrate myself upon the holy and awesome tziyunim of Mordechai and Esther, who saved all Your people the House of Israel with their prayers—Mordechai in his sackcloth and fasting, and Esther who decreed three days of fasting and put her life on the line and said, "And if I perish, I perish," and agreed to save the entire people of Israel with her body and soul, and threw herself into the terrible den of Achashverosh and Haman, whose cruelty was unmatched, and who said to destroy, to kill, and to annihilate all Jews, young and old, infants and women, and all in one day, in one moment to destroy everything. And the entire people of Israel were in terrible danger of being consumed by them. But You, in Your awesome mercy, heard their prayer and saved all Your people Israel in their merit, because You saw their pure and clean heart. Mordechai—"Mor Dror" (pure myrrh)—like pure oil placed on the head of the High Priest, and Esther—Hadassah—myrrh and spices, her prayers ascended before You as a pleasing fragrance. So too, accept also all our prayers, always hear our cry and our supplications, always save us from all our troubles, and grant us the merit of complete teshuvah, and always turn all our iniquities into merits. And we will always continue to come to their holy and awesome tziyun, and we will always cast away the vanities of the world, and we will not desire the banquets of kings which have been our undoing forever, and we will truly fulfill "Bread with salt you shall eat, and water by measure." And then we will merit to always see that salvation belongs to Hashem.

Yoel HaNavi

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Yoel HaNavi, in trembling and in shuddering, in shaking, in terror and in awe. Grant me the merit, as I stand here in trembling and quaking, and my whole body shudders within me and my knees knock together, as I bring to my heart the promise that Yoel HaNavi promised: "And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out My spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions. And also upon the servants and upon the handmaids in those days will I pour out My spirit. And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth, blood, and fire, and pillars of smoke" (Joel 3:1-3).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, as I stand here upon the holy and awesome tziyun of Yoel HaNavi, who was the son of Shmuel HaNavi who was equal to Moshe and Aharon, cause to rest upon me and emanate upon me from the awesome spirit of Yoel HaNavi. And may I merit that some spark from Yoel HaNavi will impregnate me, and through this I will merit the spirit of prophecy, and to strip my impure body of the "skin of the serpent," and I will merit a holy body from Gan Eden. And may I merit to emerge from all the bitter and terrible lusts, and from all the forbidden sights and evil thoughts that consume every body, soul, and spirit. And may I merit to enter Gan Eden with the body, like Chanoch, Eliyahu HaNavi, and Yehoshua ben Levi, and the rest of the tzaddikim who merited to enter Gan Eden with their bodies.

Yochai

Master of the Universe, as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Yochai, the father of Rashb"i, about whom Rabbi Nachman of Breslov said, "For it shall not be forgotten from the mouth of his offspring"—the offspring of Yochai, that Hashem promised Yochai the father of Rabbi Shimon that from his offspring would come such an awesome tzaddik through whom the Torah will never be forgotten. Please Hashem, grant me the merit to strip my body completely, and to come to the awesome holiness of Yochai the father of Rabbi Shimon, who merited from his awesome holiness to beget a son about whom it was said "Let us make man," who was the peak of human perfection, and ascended above the level of Adam HaRishon, and upon whom depend all the perfections of all mortals.

Please Hashem, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit here as I stand beside the holy and awesome tziyun in trembling and quaking, fear and awe, shaking and shuddering, to receive some spark from the holy and awesome soul of Yochai the father of Rabbi Shimon. So that I too, within the congregation of Israel, will be able to merit to draw down holy and awesome souls like that of Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, who will only yearn for You all twenty-four hours, and will not divert their attention from You even for a brief moment. And they will also merit, like Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, a holy body from Gan Eden, and will merit to completely strip their leprous body of the "skin of the serpent." And may I too merit, within the congregation of Israel, to spend all the days of my life in a pit of dirt and sand, without moving all twenty-four hours even one cubit except for the time of prayer. And may I merit to be like Rabbi Shimon the son of Yochai, holy and pure in the utmost holiness and purity above which there is nothing higher. And may I too merit, like Yochai the father of Rabbi Shimon, to draw down to the world souls on the level of Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, until the whole world will be filled with souls whose level will be like Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai and even more than that, until they merit to draw down the souls of Mashiach ben Yosef and Mashiach ben David who will bring the complete Geulah, and will build the Holy Temple speedily in our days in the blink of an eye, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Shemaya and Avtalyon

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit here as I stand beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Shemaya and Avtalyon, about whom it is said in the Gemara (Yoma 71b): The Rabbis taught: An incident with a certain High Priest who exited the Holy Temple, and all the children of Israel followed him after he exited in peace from the Holy of Holies after the Yom Kippur service, having merited to enter four times in peace. And all the people of Jerusalem and the children of Israel went after him to honor him. But suddenly they saw Shemaya and Avtalyon, and immediately they left the High Priest, even though he had merited to enter the innermost sanctum, and all the people turned to escort Shemaya and Avtalyon to their home. And thus all the children of Israel showed us that Shemaya and Avtalyon are greater than the High Priest who merited to enter the innermost sanctum, because their service in holiness is beyond all comprehension, and no thought can grasp it at all.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit that I will be impregnated now as I stand here beside their holy and awesome tziyun, and I prostrate myself upon their tziyun in trembling and quaking. Grant me the merit to receive a fraction of their awesome holiness, and may a spark from their soul impregnate me, who merited to be all year and all the days of their lives in the aspect of the innermost sanctum, and merited to cling to Hashem, may He be blessed, in a single knot that was never severed. So too, grant me the merit from this second onward to cling, in their merit, to the Life of the Worlds without any diversion of thought at all. And may I merit like them to know the entire Torah completely without any diversion of thought at all. And may I merit to study in their merit the entire Shas, Rambam, Tur, Shulchan Aruch, Rif, Rosh, and all their commentaries, Ramban, Rashba, Ritva, Meiri, and all the Rishonim and Acharonim, along with the Zohar and Tikkunei Zohar, Zohar Chadash and Midrash HaNe'elam and all the Midrashim, and Etz Chaim and Pri Etz Chaim, and Shaar HaKavanot and the Eight Gates and all the writings of the Arizal and their commentaries up to our own days, and all the writings of the Rashash and R' Chaim de la Rosa, and all the books of our Holy Rebbe (Rebbe Nachman) and his disciples and the disciples of his disciples.

Rabbi Yosi HaGlili

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, You are able, as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Rabbi Yosi HaGlili, to impregnate in me some holy spark from his holy and pure soul. Who, immediately upon coming for the first time among the Sages in the great Beit Midrash in the vineyard in Yavneh, merited immediately to reveal the halacha that a firstborn offering is eaten for two days and one night, like peace offerings which are eaten for two days and one night (Zevachim, Eizehu Mekoman 57a).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, my knees knock against each other as I stand here beside the holy and awesome tziyun of Rabbi Yosi HaGlili, who merited that all the fifty plagues that the Egyptians received at the Red Sea were revealed to him. And he is the Gematria of David (14) ben (52) Yishai (320) = 386 = Rabbi Yosi HaGlili (88+86+212) = 386. Who merited that the soul of King David, peace be upon him, impregnated him, as our holy Rabbi, Rabbi Shimshon of Ostropoli, revealed to us (in his introduction to the Passover Haggadah). So too, grant me the merit as I stand here beside the holy tziyun of Rabbi Yosi HaGlili, who merited that the soul of Mashiach ben David impregnated him, that in me too right now some spark from the soul of Mashiach ben Yishai will impregnate me, who will bring the complete Geulah, and will build the Holy Temple speedily in our days in the blink of an eye, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Please, Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, in terrible shame, in trembling and quaking, fear and awe, trembling of knees, and shuddering in all my loins, as I bring to my heart the awesome greatness of the Godly Tanna Rabbi Yosi HaGlili. Who, immediately when he first came to the Beit Midrash (Zevachim 57a), already asked from where we know that peace offerings are eaten for two days and one night. And about him the awesome verses in Daniel were said: "I saw the ram pushing westward, and northward, and southward; and no beasts could stand before him, neither was there any that could deliver out of his hand; but he did according to his will, and magnified himself"—this is Rabbi Akiva. And about Rabbi Yosi HaGlili it is said: "And as I was considering, behold, a he-goat came from the west over the face of the whole earth, and touched not the ground; and the goat had a conspicuous horn between his eyes. And he came to the ram that had the two horns, which I saw standing before the stream, and ran at him in the fury of his power. And I saw him come close to the ram, and he was enraged against him, and smote the ram, and broke his two horns" [—this is Rabbi Akiva and Shimon ben Nanas] "and there was no power in the ram to stand before him; but he cast him down to the ground, and trampled upon him" [—this is Rabbi Akiva] "and there was none that could deliver the ram out of his hand" [—these are the thirty-two elders in Lod] "And the he-goat magnified himself exceedingly" [—this is Rabbi Yosi HaGlili] (Tosefta Mikvaot, end of chapter 8). And grant me the merit to receive a spark from his awesome holiness and his infinite greatness. And may I merit here upon his holy and awesome tziyun to pour out my heart like water before You, until I merit to reach the level of the Godly Tanna Rabbi Yosi HaGlili, as it is written, a person is obligated to say, "When will my actions reach the actions of my forefathers?"

The Holy Patriarchs

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One, You created the souls of the holy Patriarchs, souls that did not participate in the sin of Adam HaRishon, because they were from the Supernal Radiance (Zihara Ila'ah), and they flew away from Adam HaRishon even before he contemplated the sin, Heaven forbid. And they never tasted, nor smelled, nor thought about the Tree of Knowledge at all.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit at this moment as I prostrate myself upon the holy and awesome tziyunim of the holy Patriarchs, that I will no longer desire any lower union at all, and all my unions and those of my wife will be on the level of the awesome unions of Avraham and Sarah, Yitzchak and Rivkah, Yaakov, Rachel, and Leah, who never felt any physical sensation in their union. But on the contrary, they felt terrible agonies that no human mind can grasp, and thus they merited to draw down the souls of Yitzchak and Yaakov, the twelve tribes of God, and the totality of all the seventy holy souls, which were then the totality of all the souls of Israel.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, please help me to reach the level of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, Sarah, Rivkah, Rachel, and Leah, who are the seven branches of the Menorah, the Menorah which is the head. And may I merit miracles and wonders like the holy Patriarchs and like the holy Matriarchs, whose lamp never went out, and there was blessing in their dough, and a cloud was tied above their tent, and their home was wide open.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, just as You blessed Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov with everything, from everything, all, and the Gaon says about this that they all merited the Fiftieth Gate, so too may I merit the Fiftieth Gate, and I will know that there is none else besides You and nothing but You, and You are the only One who guides the world. And just as You granted the merit to the Binder and the Bound (Avraham and Yitzchak) to the World of Akudim (Bound), and to Yaakov to the World of Akudim and to the World of Nekudim (Points) and to the World of Berudim (Flecked) which is the World of Atzilut (Emanation). So too, grant me the merit, that I may merit to ascend to the World of Akudim and to the World of Nekudim and to the World of Atzilut, and the World of Asiyah (Action) will be completely nullified for me, and I will know nothing of it. And in the merit of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, Sarah, Rivkah, and Leah, to whose holy tziyun I am traveling now, may I merit to be completely included in them, and to be dust and ashes like them from now until eternity.

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit to reach the level of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, as Avraham said, "And I am dust and ashes," Yitzchak was "ashes piled upon the altar," and of Yaakov it is said, "Who can count the dust of Yaakov."

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, please help me to reach the holiness of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, and please help my wife to reach the holiness of Sarah, Rivkah, Rachel, and Leah. And grant me and my wife the merit to be included in the holy Cherubim that dwell upon the Ark Cover, and may I merit to be separated in the utmost separation like King David, peace be upon him, who said, "And my heart is hollow within me."

Master of the Universe, grant me and my wife the merit to be included in the Supernal Radiance of Adam HaRishon, because the Supernal Radiance was the soul of the Patriarchs and Matriarchs, Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, Sarah, Rivkah, Rachel, and Leah, and the rest of the unique individuals of the generations.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit of the clusters of the vine, and the blessing of "Your wife shall be like a fruitful vine in the inner chambers of your house; your children like olive shoots around your table." Fruitful (פּוֹרִיָּה) = Fire (אֵשׁ) = 301, that my wife and I will burn in a flame of fire toward You day and night, like the holy Patriarchs and the holy Matriarchs.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to be like Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, about whom it is said, "Only in your forefathers did Hashem delight to love them, and He chose their offspring after them, even you, above all peoples, as it is this day. Circumcise therefore the foreskin of your heart, and be no longer stiff-necked."

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit in the merit of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, to never again stiffen my neck, and to merit a soft heart, a heart that is full of "flashes of the flame of God" toward You, day and night without a moment's pause. And may I merit to be like Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov, who burned toward You day and night in a flame of holy fire without a second's pause. And may I merit to always burn toward You, whether in my Torah study or in my prayer, with eternal love and true love, and the Name Havayah will not depart from before my eyes day and night. And may I merit to be like the holy Patriarchs, to whom You swore by El Shaddai, to multiply their offspring like the dust of the earth and like the sand of the sea and like the stars of the heavens. And may I merit that my wife will always conceive immediately, and may I merit like Yaakov Avinu to see 600,000 descendants while still in my lifetime.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to complete the image of Man that is above the Chariot, and may my wife and I merit to be included in the Supernal Man. And may we merit to receive Your seal which You gave to Yaakov Avinu, as it is written, "You will give truth to Yaakov," and all my actions will be absolute truth, as Yaakov Avinu merited (Megaleh Amukot, Shlach Lecha 3, page 143 in the glosses). And to increase in kindness like Avraham Avinu, and our home will be a home wide open to every passerby. And may we merit the Fear of Yitzchak, as it is written regarding Yaakov, "And Yaakov swore by the Fear of his father Yitzchak."

And I will never again open my eyes, and I will never again see anything forbidden. And may I merit like Yitzchak Avinu, who from the day he reached maturity never opened his eyes, and through this he merited to draw down the Clouds of Glory for the entire people of Israel. So too, grant me and my wife the merit that the seven Clouds of Glory will surround us day and night, and through this we will merit to hear the seven voices from which the Ten Commandments were drawn down, until my wife and I merit to be included in the Sefirot of Chochmah, Binah, Keter. And through this we will merit like Avraham Avinu who merited to be included in the World of Akudim, and like Yitzchak who merited to be included in the World of Nekudim, and like Yaakov who merited to be included in the World of Atzilut (Etz Chaim 24a, glosses).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, as I stand here opposite their holy and awesome tziyun, grant me the merit to be completely included in their holy soul, and from now on I will no longer blemish my Brit nor my eyes, from now until eternity.

Avner ben Ner

With trembling and quaking, terror and fear, I have come here with supreme self-sacrifice, to prostrate myself upon the holy and awesome tziyun of Avner ben Ner, the commander of the armies of Israel, who merits even now to stand at the head of the heavenly armies of Israel. About whom it was said (in Midrash Kohelet 9:11), Rabbi Assi said in the name of Rabbi Yochanan: It is easier for a person to move a built wall of six cubits than to move one foot of Avner. Because Avner was comprised of all six Sefirot: Chesed, Gevurah, Tiferet, Netzach, Hod, Yesod. And they said about Avner, that he used to say: If the earth had a place to grab onto, I would shake it (Yalkut Shimoni, Jeremiah 9). So too, may I merit even now, coming here with literal self-sacrifice, that Avner will find some point of grasp in my heart, a true good point of a true thought of teshuvah, so that he can shake my heart and all my 248 limbs and 365 sinews, to cease from my evil deeds and my despicable thoughts. And may I merit in the merit of Avner ben Ner, to purify my thoughts, and to extract my soul from my body, the "skin of the serpent," and to completely free my soul from the terrible shackles of the body in which I am immersed. Just as Avner merited, that during the question of "With what does a woman without hands perform Chalitzah?" his soul departed and was extracted from his body, and ascended to Atzilut and was included in the roots of the souls of Israel in Atzilut. And he merited to be the head of the heavenly armies, because he merited to completely abandon himself for the sake of the congregation of Israel. And even during his dying moments when Yoav was in his hands, and he could have taken his revenge on him in the blink of an eye, he overcame his inclination and conquered his desire for the sake of the congregation of Israel. Until he merited in this merit to be buried near Avraham, Yitzchak, Yaakov, Sarah, Rivkah, Leah, because he merited to be included in their level, and turned into absolute good without any strict judgment at all. Until he merits even now to sweeten all strict judgment from upon us, and to have pity on our lives just as he had pity on the life of Yoav ben Tzruyah, and to turn all strict judgment into mercy, and all sorrow into joy. Until we merit in his merit the renewal of the Kingdom of the House of David, and the building of the Holy Temple speedily in our days in the blink of an eye, Amen, Netzach, Selah, Va'ed.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to reach the level of Avner ben Ner and to be exactly like him. And especially to merit his wondrous level, that even though they spilled his blood, and his blood was poured out like water to the ground, and a sword was thrust into his body, nevertheless he did not move or stir, and did not take his revenge, and did not demand his honor. As it is written in David's lament: "And the king lamented over Avner, and said: Should Avner die as a churl dies? Your hands were not bound, nor your feet put into fetters; as a man falls before the children of iniquity, so did you fall. And all the people wept again over him."

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to be like Avner, who said that if they gave him a point of grasp he could shake the whole world, which means that he had the power to bring the whole world back in teshuvah, and to shake all the wicked at their root. Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit to study Torah in holiness and purity, like Avner who knew the entire Torah completely. And grant me the merit of the holiness of the Brit like Avner, who was holy and pure in the utmost holiness and purity.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit through the study of Torah in holiness and purity, that through every single letter that I say in holiness and purity, I will merit to shake all the souls of the wicked, and to instill in all the wicked true thoughts of teshuvah. And may I merit to study every day for twelve and a half hours without a moment's pause, and through this may I merit every day to bring 600,000 souls back in teshuvah [600,000 = 12.5 x 60 minutes in an hour x 4 letters x 200 words a minute].

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, grant me the merit to be diligent in my studies and not a single minute will pass by me in idleness.

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit to sit like Avner by the pool which is in Giv'on, and because he sat by the pool which is the Sea of Wisdom, he merited to subdue Giv'on (גִּבְעוֹן) 131 = S"M (ס"מ) 131. So too, grant me the merit to study Torah day and night, and through this the Sea of Wisdom will be revealed to me, until I too will merit to subdue Giv'on, which is Tzif'on, which is Tzefa = Amalek = 240, which is Giv'on = S"M = 131.

And may I merit to study Torah day and night, and I will not remove my eyes from the book, and You will reveal to me the love that is in Da'at (Knowledge), which is called "One day it shall be known to Hashem, neither day nor night." And when Da'at is revealed, which is the light of this love, then all opposites will unite: the Kingdom of David, the Kingdom of Shaul, and the Kingdom of Israel. And then the verse will be fulfilled: "And the wolf shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; and the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a little child shall lead them"—this is the angel Matat. "And the cow and the bear shall feed; their young ones shall lie down together; and the lion shall eat straw like the ox. And the nursing child shall play over the hole of the asp, and the weaned child shall put his hand on the basilisk's den. They shall not hurt nor destroy in all My holy mountain; for the earth shall be full of the knowledge of Hashem, as the waters cover the sea."

And grant me the merit to fulfill the words of David who said at Avner's funeral, "Rend your clothes, and gird yourselves with sackcloth, and wail before Avner." And may I merit to rend my clothes and my heart, out of great bitterness over my bitter lusts, and to gird sackcloth because of the many bonfires burning within me, until all the bonfires are nullified, and all my bitter lusts will be nullified and become as nothing and naught. And I will know my lowliness in truth, that I am the worst of everyone in the world, and I will merit the level of "David is the smallest" from his beginning to his end. And in this merit, the verse will be fulfilled: "And it shall come to pass in that day, that the root of Yishai, that stands for an ensign of the peoples, unto him shall the nations seek; and his resting-place shall be glorious."

Yishai and Ruth

Master of the Universe, full of mercy, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, just as You granted Yishai the merit that he entered with a multitude and left with a multitude (Brachot 58a, Yevamot 76b), and the Gemara says (in Brachot 58a) that a multitude is no less than 600,000. So too, grant me the merit of 600,000 students, and to give birth to Mashiach ben David. And just as You granted Yishai the merit that he died without sin, only because of the counsel of the serpent (the original sin), so too grant me the merit to be without any sin or iniquity, and may all my iniquities be atoned for, and all my blemishes of the Brit. And I will never again blemish the Brit at all, neither in my eyes nor in any of my limbs, and truly forgive and pardon all my iniquities.

And grant me the merit like Ruth, to cast behind me all the matters of this world, and to be like Ruth who was the daughter or granddaughter of Eglon King of Moab, and she cast all the delicacies of royalty behind her back, and went to gather gleanings with self-sacrifice. Please, Merciful and Gracious One, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, just as Boaz gave Ruth six measures of barley, and through this she merited a descendant with six qualities: "Skillful in playing" - who knows how to ask; "A mighty man of valor" - who knows how to answer; "A man of war" - who knows how to negotiate in the battle of Torah; "Prudent in speech" - who shows facets in halacha; "A comely person" - who understands one thing from another; "And Hashem is with him" - that the halacha is according to him in every place (Sanhedrin 93b). And the verse was fulfilled in him, "And wherever he turns, he prospers." So too, grant me the merit of sons and grandsons, wise and understanding, mighty men and men of war, skillful players and comely persons, and Hashem is with them.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit of sons who are comely persons (אַנְשֵׁי תֹּאַר). Sandal Matat (סַנְדַ"ל מַטַ"ט) + 1 + 6 = 601 = To'ar (תֹּאַר - comely). That they will truly merit to see the Cherubim which are Sandal Matat, from between which the voice came forth, "Do not lay your hand upon the lad (Na'ar)," and this is the secret of the lads (Ne'arim). And may I merit like Ruth, who asked that they reveal to her the secret of the lads which is the secret of the Cherubim, and then You revealed to her the secret of the Cherubim, and in this merit she merited Mashiach ben David.

Othniel ben Kenaz

Master of the Universe, grant me and my wife the merit to reach the level of Othniel ben Kenaz, and to merit to sweeten the strict judgments from upon all of Israel like him, who merited to sweeten for forty years all the strict judgments from upon Israel. And to merit to know the entire Shas like him, and to innovate halachot like him, and to merit to innovate three thousand halachot as Othniel ben Kenaz merited, who merited to conquer Kiryat Sefer, and to resolve all the obscurities. And this is the secret of "And Yaakov came whole to the city of Shechem"—whole in his Torah, Shechem (שְׁכֶם) = Shas (שַׁ"ס), that in the merit of studying the Shas he merited to conquer the city of Shechem. And this is "whole in his Torah," that he did not forget any letter of his learning which he learned with Shem and Ever, and through this he merited to be like Shem (שֵׁ"ם), the letters of Shechem (שְׁכֶ"ם).

Please grant me the merit, Merciful and Gracious One, to always pray the prayer of Othniel ben Kenaz, as it is written, "And Yaavetz called on the God of Israel, saying: 'Oh that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my border, and that Your hand might be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that it may not grieve me!' And God granted him that which he requested." And the Gemara explains two interpretations (in Temurah 16a), and grant me the merit that both interpretations will be fulfilled in me. One interpretation of Rabbi Natan: "Oh that You would bless me indeed" - in Torah; "and enlarge my border" - with students; "and that Your hand might be with me" - that my learning should not be forgotten from my heart; "and that You would keep me from evil" - that friends like me will be provided for me; "that it may not grieve me" - that the evil inclination should not prevent me from studying. If You do so, it is good, and if not, behold I go down to Sheol in my sorrow. Immediately, "And God granted him that which he requested."

And likewise fulfill in me the second interpretation of Rabbi Yehuda HaNasi: "Oh that You would bless me indeed" - in procreation; "and enlarge my border" - with sons and daughters; "and that Your hand might be with me" - in business; "and that You would keep me from evil" - that I should not have a headache, nor an earache, nor an eyeache; "that it may not grieve me" - that the evil inclination should not prevent me from studying. If You do so, it is good, and if not, behold I go down to Sheol in my sorrow. Immediately, "And God granted him that which he requested."

Rabbi Avdimi D'min Haifa

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One from Whom no purpose can be withheld, upon arriving to prostrate myself with knocking knees and shuddering in the loins, as I prostrate myself upon the holy and awesome tziyun of Rabbi Avdimi D'min Haifa, who merited that Rabbi Zeira, who entered every thirty days into a blazing fire, was your student, because you merited that your Torah was a blazing fire, and therefore you merited to reveal 310 (Shai) worlds, as it is written, "To inherit those who love Me with substance (Yesh/310)." And may we merit all the days of our lives to concentrate in prayer, and to fulfill your awesome teaching: "A person must turn his face to the wall and pray, as it is written, 'And Chizkiyahu turned his face to the wall'" (Yerushalmi Brachot 4:4). And we will not skip, Heaven forbid, not a word and not even a single letter, and we will always remember that every letter means infinite palaces, and every single letter is roses and flowers that are gathered and woven like blossoms and roses. And may we all merit like Chizkiyahu who subdued two million, six hundred thousand minus one, because all the armies of the world were as nothing against him, in the merit that he planted a sword at the entrance of the Beit Midrash and everyone studied Torah, until they kept alive only a young cow and two sheep, and its vines for a thousand pieces of silver for briers and thorns. And one hundred and eighty-five thousand heads of legions were turned to nothing, when the angel Gavriel came on the night of Passover to kill and destroy all the armies of Sancheriv, the cruelest of men. That after all these things and this truth, the Holy One, blessed be He, jumped and swore to bring all these, so that Chizkiyahu could not, with his awesome prayers, curse and turn Sancheriv and his armies into dung and fertilizer on the soil of Israel. From Dan to Be'er Sheva they did not find an ignoramus, because everyone was expert in Torah, Prophets, and Writings, from Dan to Be'er Sheva, even the children. So too, may we also merit in the merit of Rabbi Avdimi D'min Haifa, to know the entire Torah completely, Gemara, Shas, Rishonim and Acharonim, Rambam, Tur, and Shulchan Aruch and all the commentaries, Ramban, Rashba, Ritva, Meiri, and Shitah Mekubetzet, the four Turim, Beit Yosef, Bach, Magen Avraham, Taz, Shach, and Sma, and all the commentators. And just as in the time of Chizkiyahu oil burned in the synagogues morning and evening, so may our pleasing fragrance ascend before You like a rose among the thorns, and in the merit that the verse will be fulfilled in us: "And it shall come to pass in that day, that his burden shall depart from off your shoulder, and his yoke from off your neck, and the yoke shall be destroyed because of oil." And just as You heard the prayers of Chizkiyahu who turned his face to the wall, so may You hear our prayers today as we weep and cry out, and in all our 248 limbs and 365 sinews we tremble from the terrible decrees which we hear every day, "They have said: Come, and let us cut them off from being a nation; that the name of Israel may be no more in remembrance." Philistia and Tyre, Moab and the Hagrites, all of them plot and sharpen their eyes to destroy the vineyard of Hashem, infants, men, and women. And therefore we have come here to your holy and awesome tziyun, that you may hear our cries, holy and awesome tzaddik, and nullify from upon us all cruel decrees. And open our hearts in the study of Your Torah to teach, and may we always merit to concentrate in all our prayers on every word and every letter. And save us just as You saved the Patriarchs, and just as You heard their prayers in all generations, so hear our prayers on this day to turn to us, and perform miracles for us like those who crossed the Sea and the Jordan, and go before us in seven clouds, and destroy all our enemies, leave them no survivor or escapee, nor offspring, descendant, or remnant. Only always shine Your face upon us, in the merit of the holy and awesome tzaddik who dwells here, say "Enough" to our troubles, and we will know no pain or ache. And from this moment we will be saved with an everlasting salvation, and we will merit to see with our own eyes the eternal building.

Me'arat Eliyahu (Cave of Elijah)

Upon my arrival here at your holy and awesome cave, Eliyahu HaNavi, where here you merited your high and exalted level, and from here, from Mount Carmel, after you brought down fire from heaven, and the entire nation bowed and fell and prostrated on their faces and cried and shouted "Hashem, He is God" twice, and received in this merit the Torah doubly. Because you merited what they did not merit in all generations, to see fire from heaven coming down before everyone's eyes. And afterward you walked forty days and forty nights without food and sleep, without support or staff, only by the power of the meager eating of a jug of water and a cake baked on coals. And in this merit your body was ground to infinite dust, until you merited to enter the cleft of the rock, a place where one enters without a body, because there the Hidden Light is hidden, which if it were pierced even a hairsbreadth, the world would burn from the intensity of the light of the Hidden Light. And thus you merited the level of Moshe, who alone merited this, to enter the Cave of Wonders, from which time his face shone like sapphires, like the sun, moon, and stars. And his light went from one end of the world to the other, until he put a veil to hide it. So too, you merited to enter the cleft of the rock at Mount Sinai, the place where Moshe received the Thirteen Attributes, and in this merit he merited all his wondrous levels. And so too you merited, in the merit that you secluded yourself (Hisbodedus) day and night, and nullified all worldly desires, you merited a holy and awesome body, whose every limb turned into burning torches of fire, until you ascended to the heights in a chariot of fire, and horses which are angels. Therefore we have come here that you may give us a double portion of your light and your spirit, just as you gave to Elisha whom you met when he was plowing with a yoke of oxen, and he cast away all his wealth and despised worldly vanities to receive from your prophecy, and merited a double portion from each one. So too, in your merit, may we also cry out "Hashem, He is God," and we will always see you face to face, like at the time when you brought down fire from the heights. And here to this cave we will constantly arrive, because only in it is it possible to receive the double portion of your spirit to be victorious.

Natan HaNavi and Gad HaChozeh

Master of the Universe, as I stand before the holy and awesome tziyunim of Natan HaNavi and Gad HaChozeh, who were souls from the Supernal Radiance of Adam HaRishon, and as I bring to my heart the parable of the poor man's ewe that Natan told David, my whole body shudders, trembling and quaking seize me. For behold, I am this man, the robber and the extortionist, who robs day and night the poor man's ewe, which is my wonderful wife, unique in the generation, whose entire trust is upon me, and all the strength of her expectations are only toward me, and all her dreams are that I will grow in Torah. And for this she sacrifices her life day and night, and is certain that she married an angel of God, while I am found in the lowest depths of Sheol, and beneath all seven compartments of Gehenna, and I have fallen deeper than the pit of destruction. And all the wicked are as nothing and naught compared to me, because I have already acted more wickedly in this incarnation than any person, and in past incarnations more than all mortals, until all my intellect has run out and disappeared, and I am left barren and empty more than any person.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, please forgive my transgressions, for I have already fallen from the wagon, until I have pierced the entire globe from the weight of my iniquities. And my modest and delicate wife, unique in the generation like no other, thinks in her innocence that she married an angel of God, and with these thoughts she soars to the heavens, and all her prayers are that all the gates on high will be opened for me, while the truth with me is that I have fallen deeper than the lowest Sheol.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, where shall I take my disgrace, and who is the one who can forgive the magnitude of my transgressions, "For my iniquities have passed over my head," they have become more numerous than all the hairs of mortals, and heavier than the sand of the seas and all the stars. But I have nothing else but to say the words of David, who merited that "my heart is hollow within me," and said to Gad HaChozeh, "Let us fall now into the hand of Hashem; for His mercies are great; and let me not fall into the hand of man." Therefore I have come to beg of You, Master of Mercy, whose kindnesses have no limit, and to hope for Your infinite mercies. Please, in the merit of Natan HaNavi and Gad HaChozeh, grant me the merit to draw close to our Holy Rebbe (Rebbe Nachman), who was elevated on high, above all men, about whom it was said, "Broad places of the river, streams of faith, deep waters a man of understanding will draw them, its outcomes are the fifty gates of understanding, Hashem preserves the faithful" (Shaarei Tziyon 481).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, Who dwells in the heavens, please have mercy on Your children who have already been ground to the finest dust of the heavens, and they are still ground and being ground, finer than fine dust they are ground. And my youth is already gone (I have passed twenty), and all my years are years of the wicked (Resha'im). Please turn Resha'im (רְשָׁעִי"ם) into She'arim (שְּׁעָרִי"ם - gates), and for the sake of Natan HaNavi and Gad and my wife, please turn me into one who is "known in the gates" (Noda BaShe'arim). And return to me all the intellect that departed from me due to my many iniquities, and from this day onward I will study with great desire, Gemara, Rashi, Tosafot, Rishonim and Acharonim. And from this moment my intellect will be completely opened, and all my mind will return to me, until I merit to be included in the level of the Prophets.

Master of the Universe, the Omnipotent One, as I stand now before the holy, awesome, and terrifying tziyun of Natan HaNavi and Gad HaChozeh, please, Merciful and Gracious One, as I bring to my heart the prophecy of the poor man's ewe that Natan prophesied to David, I know that I am the one who betrays day and night every holy thing, and despises every person in Israel, and I transgress in every moment and second "Do not despise any man."

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, when will I emerge from the terrible sin of the poor man's ewe, which I transgress in every moment and second, and I oppress in every moment every person of Israel. Especially I oppress my precious wife, whose eyes look all day toward me, and all her vitality is solely from me, and all her trust is solely upon me. And I, the sinner, the transgressor, the owner of the cruelest heart in the world, and the hardest heart of stone since the world was created, I pay no attention to her weeping and her cries, as she wets her pillows day and night from the great sorrow that I completely ignore her, and forget about her in every moment and second.

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, with what will my iniquity be atoned, and how will You forgive my terrible sins, which have no end or number, "They are more numerous than the hairs of my head" and heavier than the sand of the seas. (Based on Job 6:3).

Please, Merciful and Gracious One, grant me the merit to be holy and pure like King David, peace be upon him, who said, "My heart is hollow within me," and he is the one who answered Gad HaChozeh, "Let us fall now into the hand of Hashem; for His mercies are great; and let me not fall into the hand of man."

[This article was partially translated. Read the full article in Hebrew at: https://ravberland.co.il/blog/prayer-ee2e2a840fcd]