A Prayer to Merit the Forgiveness of Sins, Absolute Guarding of the Eyes, and to Burn for Hashem Day and Night

Master of the Universe, grant me the merit that all my sins be forgiven in the blink (כְּהֶרֶף 305) of an eye (עַיִן 130 = 435), through teshuvah (repentance) out of love. And may I always be in a state of teshuvah out of love, every single moment and second. Through this, may I merit to be included in Adam Kadmon of Adam Kadmon (the highest primordial spiritual realm). And may I never open my eyes [to worldly vanity] ever again. May I merit the trait of Gevurah (holy strength and discipline) to close my eyes hermetically, and never open them ever again. May I merit to be all my days like Rabbi Matya ben Charash, who called his student and said to him, "Bring skewers," and then said to him, "Bring me a 'burner' of blazing fire that shoots flames of fire." He placed the skewers into the burner, into the blazing fire shooting flames, until the skewers were red-hot like fire. Then he thrust the white-hot skewers into his own eyes, as it is stated (Psalms 119:37), "Avert (ha'aver) my eyes from seeing vanity." Do not read it as "avert" (ha'aver), but rather read it as "blind" (ha'aver with a vav)—to not see anything on the face of the earth. For the very first thing a person must do is to blind his eyes [to the physical world], just as Rav Yosef and Rav Sheshet, the students of Rav, blinded themselves from the outset. And just as Rabbi Avraham ben HaRambam writes at the end of the Essay on Hisbodedus, that a person is obligated to learn from the Dervishes (ascetics), who blind their eyes time and time again, neither resting nor keeping quiet, until they have blinded their eyes completely. Through this, may we merit that the Angels of the Divine Chariot accompany us, whose names form the acronym ARGAMAN ('אַרְגָּמָן'): Or Pniel, Raphael, Gavriel, Michael, and Nuriel (= 955). Through this, all four of our elements—Water (מַיִם 90), Fire (אֵשׁ 301), Wind (רוּחַ 214), and Dust (עָפָר 350) [which equal 955]—will be transformed into the four elements of holiness. We will burn with a flaming fire for Hashem, blessed be He, day (יוֹמָם 96) and night (וָלַיְלָה 81 = 177). Through this, may we enter the Garden (לְגַן 53) of Eden (עֵדֶן 124 = 177) with our physical bodies, just like Serach (שֶׂרַח 508) the daughter of (בַּת 402) Asher (אָשֵׁר 501 = 1411). Through this, we will subdue the 11 (י"א = 11) chieftains of Esau, and the verse will be fulfilled within us (Esther 9:1): "And it was turned about, that (אֲשֶׁר 501) they should rule (יִשְׁלְטוּ 355), the Jews (הַיְהוּדִים 80), they (הֵמָּה 50) over their enemies (בְּשׂוֹנְאֵיהֶם 414 = 1411)."
BS"D 833
To Merit the Forgiveness of Sins, Absolute Guarding of the Eyes, and to Burn for Hashem Day and Night
Master of the Universe, grant me the merit that all my sins be forgiven in the blink (כְּהֶרֶף 305) of an eye (עַיִן 130 = 435), through teshuvah (repentance) out of love. And may I always be in a state of teshuvah out of love, every single moment and second. Through this, may I merit to be included in Adam Kadmon of Adam Kadmon (the highest primordial spiritual realm). And may I never open my eyes [to worldly vanity] ever again. May I merit the trait of Gevurah (holy strength and discipline) to close my eyes hermetically, and never open them ever again. May I merit to be all my days like Rabbi Matya ben Charash, who called his student and said to him, "Bring skewers," and then said to him, "Bring me a 'burner' of blazing fire that shoots flames of fire." He placed the skewers into the burner, into the blazing fire shooting flames, until the skewers were red-hot like fire. Then he thrust the white-hot skewers into his own eyes, as it is stated (Psalms 119:37), "Avert (ha'aver) my eyes from seeing vanity." Do not read it as "avert" (ha'aver), but rather read it as "blind" (ha'aver with a vav)—to not see anything on the face of the earth. For the very first thing a person must do is to blind his eyes [to the physical world], just as Rav Yosef and Rav Sheshet, the students of Rav, blinded themselves from the outset. And just as Rabbi Avraham ben HaRambam writes at the end of the Essay on Hisbodedus, that a person is obligated to learn from the Dervishes (ascetics), who blind their eyes time and time again, neither resting nor keeping quiet, until they have blinded their eyes completely. Through this, may we merit that the Angels of the Divine Chariot accompany us, whose names form the acronym ARGAMAN ('אַרְגָּמָן'): Or Pniel, Raphael, Gavriel, Michael, and Nuriel (= 955). Through this, all four of our elements—Water (מַיִם 90), Fire (אֵשׁ 301), Wind (רוּחַ 214), and Dust (עָפָר 350) [which equal 955]—will be transformed into the four elements of holiness. We will burn with a flaming fire for Hashem, blessed be He, day (יוֹמָם 96) and night (וָלַיְלָה 81 = 177). Through this, may we enter the Garden (לְגַן 53) of Eden (עֵדֶן 124 = 177) with our physical bodies, just like Serach (שֶׂרַח 508) the daughter of (בַּת 402) Asher (אָשֵׁר 501 = 1411). Through this, we will subdue the 11 (י"א = 11) chieftains of Esau, and the verse will be fulfilled within us (Esther 9:1): "And it was turned about, that (אֲשֶׁר 501) they should rule (יִשְׁלְטוּ 355), the Jews (הַיְהוּדִים 80), they (הֵמָּה 50) over their enemies (בְּשׂוֹנְאֵיהֶם 414 = 1411)."